I know it’s been awhile.
The world is falling apart.
People are more insane than they’ve ever been. The ties that bind us together are being frayed more and more everyday by divisive political figures and media corporations teaching us to disregard our fellow man. We focus on ourselves by being so selfish and vain that we can’t even see each other as human beings. We can’t empathize anymore.
Despite that, all I can do is think of writing and creating and I feel selfish for thinking that way. I start to feel guilty and pull back. I think about the money I spend on this site and how to justify it if I don’t write. I think about other constructive things I could be doing. I leave. I stay. I go. I return. But no matter what I can’t stop the urge to write, to tell stories. I don’t know why.
Back and forth. Back and forth.
I don’t have a lot of friends to hash this out with, so I’m left to my own devices, which leads to my constant uncertainty. I pray about it and it calms me, but I’m still looking for answers on the why. Why am I this way? What am I supposed to be doing? Universal questions we ask ourselves daily. The old existential run around.
All I can do is be.
I love God (YHVH). I love Jesus Christ (Yeshua). I love my Family. I love human beings.
I really enjoy telling stories. All I can do is be an example of goodness in the world and spread that to others.
So, I think I’m ready to return to work.
I’m revamping everything. The site will change. The mission will change. The outcome will change. I’m going to focus more on original projects.
I’ll have a full post with everything I’m planning to do soon. See you then.